it's 17 degress farenheit outside and this is what i see near the grocery store parking lot...which is close to the highway...

( look a little closer )

days...hours...minutes...seconds

until i see my youngest again.

it's been 55 days.

he's almost a United States Marine.

it's not what he said he was going to do, but plans change, i guess.
the changes in him are marvelous, though.

~that is all~

its so spring-like this morning
and all the days and hours are a blur...
running together and full to maddening...
and every waking moment and even in dreams
you are there, every thought includes you
and i wonder how you are.
From 14" of snow to warm breezes and sunshine,
my heart..

*sigh*

"You know? When you think about it, pictures are just time and light captured on paper..." the drummer

( venting... )

P.S. StorySide:B rocks

...the save date on properties is 18 June 2004

Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling into at night. I miss you like hell.
Edna St. Vincent Millay (1892 - 1950), Letters, 1952

lol
is that an oxymoron? i mean...missing H E L L lol
yikes!

cleaning off my work computer, because i won't be 'here' much longer :)

but i found this, written 10/31/05:

Now all those “gestures” that came from my heart are like so much idiocy. How can I be so stupid? Wonder what made me believe, how many believers there are in the words you dole out so discreetly at first. No worries here, it’s what I won’t see that counts.

wow...hung in a long time, i did...took me aWHILE!! lol


feels good to be awake.

or, psy...

that is -- psy119

psychology

yeah, MUCH MUCH WORSE ON THE anti-creation curriculum.

( werds... )


till later, i miss y'all...lots...but trying to get here now and then, k? <3

Unit 4 Discussion
020208
( See if you can find some information on the internet about finding a green way of making hydrogen fuel from sea water. Post any information you may find....mmmmmk, hereyago. )

Please -- do yourself a favor and read the articles if they interest you in the very least, as it is fascinating! Meanwhile, I go finish homework, then I go look around more so I can answer all the questions flying around my head from this one...

( ...and so it goes )
well...that's where it came from...funny how it isn't even that way any more.

writing about love is sort of cliche...or tired. who wants to hear more about love? but i believe love is so greatly misunderstood. i believe we ALL love with conditions and expectations. if we could love as HE did, there would be no arguments, right? well, the arguments would be tempered with patience and kindness and we would fight fair so to speak. what we would do is agree to disagree, methinks. we love many ways, and we use the word to death. we "love" different foods; we "love" a certain movie or star; we "love" that song! when we say we love someone, we may mean we care about them. but love is multi-faceted. there is love for family that is 'lay down and die for you love' but also agape for friends and co-workers and spouse and children. but spousal or significant other love is (should be) precious and treasured. God i fall short. no wonder he frets and the enemy tells him stuff. gosh. and how about trust in relation to love? what about loving without expectation and then having your trust bashed? and what about being pumped full of lies about love and then having your heart shredded? and what if you're the shredder instead of the shred-ee? gosh. been there, done that, hate it. what if you loved the stranger with the shopping cart and unkept appearance? what if you loved the person at work who most annoyed you? what if you loved the family member who treats you like an old unwanted dog? what if you loved your spouse even after infidelity? what if you loved your children in spite of their poor choices that made them criminals? see? overused, cliched, sick of hearing about love. but it IS what makes the world go around. what does THAT mean? love makes the world go around? no - let's look up what DOES make the world go aorund and then do a comparative write about love and the spinning of the planet, k? yeah, i like that idea. then maybe we come up with the original quote or an attribution. there are some places where these quotes have been captured. i want to write, but i don't want to have to organize my writes. i am better at freedom. we could always write about freedom alsotoo. how about making up werds, or spelling randomly? how about using lower case "i" instead of capital "I" because of humility but is that so wrong? what about "words fail me"? about usage and the decline of the english language? what language is the most romantic? the most direct and concise? the most flowery? the most difficult to write or speak if your native tongue is english? what about teaching english as a second language? how do you cure rambling in a writer? ha ha that would be me. these exercises are good for that any way. time is up and past that...

so...for my english III class, we had to evaluate something. i chose blogs. i tried xanga. i love my L J for blogging. 'cept i miss the community stuff...no time since school started, but at least i feel i can be creative here and i do have a friends list...i love you guys...no, REALLY.

-->describe the difference between choosing happiness and being a good actor/actress who is hurting inside (please?)

-->do we internalize our hurts and make everybody oblivious to them, or share to get help?

-->are these two things different? 1. pity party 2. crying out for help

just curious your thoughts mine be clouded today in the brilliant sunshine see the latest national geographic? the last two have amazing photography in them and some words i cannot see but i will soon the pictures soothe me is that because of from whence it came or because the photographers do so good?